THE XX!!!!

Love is a scary thing.

i don't want my name to go out for real it's easier to write when it's all anonymous. thats how i like it. we're not all perfect we all have are problem and struggles and i think my struggle is guys in general one kid asked me on a dat but i dont like him like that. i like this one other guy who i've known this whole year and everythings been on and off i don't i've gone the farthest with him and he knows that but it's all still confusing i can't tell if he likes me or not it sucks. he wants me to go farther but i'm scared i will get hurt. i think i love him i have never felt like this about a guy ever before and i have had a ton of boyfriends...but i have never dated this kid we thought about it but then we figured out we shouldnt. understandable things that goes farther into detail then i should go. i'm scared definitely.

THE SAME AS ALWAYS

today was a good day. it was raining because it's spring and all i could think about was thee pizza i would eat when i got home. i had to get all my teachers to sign my stupid yellow card for downstage which wasn't exciting...only because i only got about half. i was rushed in eating my lunch today. i ate hamburger sliders and smiley face fries, they never get old. i feed them to the kids i babysit. they love them. I'm trying to read this new book the catcher in the rye. i heard we had to read in later on in high school so i thought i should get a head start on things in theatre me Claudia and Chris kept laughing at the dances we were making up to ice ice baby. we're doing a scene together that we all helped write by ourselves and so far my teacher loves it. in math i didn't do the homework until about thirty seconds before the class but somehow managed to get it done. how, i don't know. i cape home and realized that there had been only two pieces of pizza left so i grabbed them before anyone else did. for a while before my homework i was procrastinating my usual day right there. and now I'm sitting on my bed as bored as could be writing this. i could be planning for my in class essay tomorrow but I'd rather write about my extremely boring and uneventful life! i hope i get a certain text later today that might cheer me up for a bit.